I'm using this site as a place to understand where my occasional depression comes from and how to avoid it. I'm a male scorpio INTJ and I've done a lot of self-help work over the years (I'm in my mid-40's now) in order to learn about myself and become a healthier person.
I hope this site can help others as am I hoping it will help me, by giving me a place to write, record, and take note. I'm guessing there are some historical patterns that repeat themselves.
It's October 18, 2012 and just yesterday I felt a depression swing lift that I was in for about a week or two. The things affecting me now were - disillusionment/lack of success with my work, serious questions about my relationship with my girlfriend - is she the right person for me, for example. My house is also dirty, I have not vacuumed up after my dogs and I was sick of my garden. I was also kind of bummed about the Orioles getting knocked out of the playoffs, but a losing sports team does not usually depress me :)
As I reflect on this round of gloominess, I notice there is an accumulation of things that make me feel overwhelmed. Add to that a change in weather to more overcast and gray and I did not feel so hot.
While I was depressed, I returned to garden work, I began to take out tomato plants that are done for the year. I also built another garden bed in a plot I'm managing across the street for our local co-op. Yesterday, I scheduled a steam cleaner to clean my carpets, which will make a huge difference. It's important to note that I don't take a lot of action while I'm feeling depressed - the garden bed and the steam cleaner were both done yesterday, AFTER I began to feel better.
I think that's all for now. I'll check back in next time things start to shift.
